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Mental abuse, Verbal Abuse, Becoming a mother. [end]
[now] 3 years later, I find myself constantly struggling mentally trying to figure myself out. My sons birth was the birth of a new spirit in me, the birth of accomplishment. The birth of hardwork and satisfaction in seeing my maternal self manifest. He gives me so much strength and a completely new mindset to be proud of. But where did I go? Where is it that I am hiding and what am I hiding from? My spirits abuse? The take down of the accomplishments I was most proud of [Before.Child] I have become 2 people. Mother Marisa is powerful and strong. [B.C.] Marisa is still being held under water. When I feel powerful is when I feel my weakest. But my child is the visible trophy of my greatest accomplishment and I feel selfish trying to gain another for myself through my creativity. Who am I?
Sometimes I just feel ready to be reincarnated.
If I’m mad about it then it doesn’t hurt. If I’m not then it just hurts.
I’ve never wanted somebody out of my life so bad. Since the 3rd month of dating things have been miserable. I don’t know how I let it get This deep and this terrible. Mentally abusive and physically threatening fuck! I wish I could explain…a nightmare
Your lipstick looks like something they put on a dead person
HELP!
So I will be 17wks pregnant tomorrow. This is all happening incredibly fast but after finding out the sex I have become incredibly excited! With excitement comes worry…..and me, I’ve been #1 when it comes to worrying, paranoia and anxiety. All my worry is wondering if my baby is doing ok inside of me. I hear so many things that can go wrong and every time I go have a ultrasound I am not relieved until I hear baby boys heart beat. It’s all been so good and dr has said it’s a very healthy baby and mom but I’m so in love already I get nervous. I am also first time momma. (Still so weird saying that)
My biggest concern lately is going to shows and festivals. I went to FFFfest this past weekend and the music was bangin. The bass was intense and I was worried it was effecting baby in a not so good way. (I guess after the first day is when my general worries started)
I’ve also gone to plenty shows previous of this….
But it is stopping now. No more shoes for a very long while.
Another issue is my job requires I Heavy lift….Is that dangerous for the baby as well?
And the small pinching/sore pains on my left side and towards my vagine. (As though I finished running or on my period) what the heck is that?
Am I over worrying? Is it safe?
I’ve done my research but I want some info from a person with experience.
UFO’s depicted in centuries old works of art.
1) 1100’s. Images from the 12th century manuscript “Annales Laurissens”
2) 1485. “The Madonna with Saint Giovannino” by Domenico Ghirlandaio
3) 1710. “Baptism Of Christ” By Aert De Gelder
4) 1486. “Annunciation with St. Emidius“ by Carlo Crivelli
5) 1350. “Crucifixion” at Svetitskhoveli Cathedral, Mtskheta, Georgia
6) 1500’s. Tapestry located in the collegiate church of Beaune, France
7) 1400’s. Crucifixion, a fresco in the Visoki Decani Monastery in Kosovo
8) 1566. A woodcut by Hans Glaser describing a mass UFO sighting/battle over the town of Nuremberg, Germany on April 4th, 1561. Gazette of the town of Nuremberg stated there were balls “approximately 3 in the length, from time to time, four in a square, much remained insulated, and between these balls, one saw a number of crosses with the color of blood. Then one saw two large pipes, in which small and large pipes, were 3 balls, also four or more. All these elements started to fight one against the other.”
9) 1566. Woodcut by Samuel Coccius, depicting a UFO sighting/battle over the town of Basel, Switzerland on August 7th, 1566. Coccius wrote in the local paper that the spheres appeared at sunrise, “Many became red and fiery, ending by being consumed and vanishing”
10) 1538. “Summer’s Triumph” a tapestry created in the town of Bruges, Belgium.
The Killers - “Mr.Brightside”
Yep. And now I’m with embryo *_*
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I’d like to take some time to talk about a couple things that are very close to my heart; Hanecdote and depression, When I launched the Ghoul Guide patches in June 2013 I had no ideas of the positivity they would spread across the world. They opened up a whole new platform for me to voice my beliefs in feminism and my experiences with depression and solidarity with mental health sufferers.
I’m writing this because I want to make people happy; I want to encourage people to love and be kind to themselves. I created a series of reward patches called ‘Little Victories; for that exact purpose, to give yourself a pat on the back for doing the little things which are so difficult for people who suffer with depression and anxiety. To buy for yourself as a “well done” or as a sign of support for a friend in a dark place; these patches serve multiple purposes. When I get feedback from my customers and followers my heart fills with joy knowing that I have impacted on someone’s mood as well as helping them on their own journey to happiness and self love.
I also just released a series called ‘Positivity Patches’ which is exactly what it says on the label. The aims of these patches are to spread a bit of brightness on an otherwise gloomy day whether that’s a message to yourself or those around you. I’ve suffered with depression since I was 14 and my experiences with it have deeply affected who I am and how I look at life. Depression affects so many people’s lives, not just the person suffering. It can feel like no one cares or that you’d be better off dead or like you’re a burden.
It’s a horrible lonely existence at worst and an emotionally draining burden at best. Suicide attempts, self harm and severe mood swings put my life on hold and prevented me from going to school properly. But despite that, I managed to get a BTEC Level 3 in Art and Design with only two GCSE’s and I’m now at university studying what I love. I still struggle everyday but if I can inspire and encourage someone else to keep going, I think I’ll be ok.
I like to think I am making a difference by producing these patches for people like me who need positive reinforcement. When I post my ‘Don’t Give Up’ patch on instagram and get comments like “I needed this <3” and “Thank you” all the late nights sewing have been worth it and even a small amount of sadness goes away for a while, knowing I’ve helped someone else. I hope I get to do this for a long time because it is the most rewarding thing I’ve ever achieved and it keeps me alive. Hanecdote’s prosperity and support keeps me alive and smiling even when my depression wants me curled up in bed. Thank you.
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Life is great!
All the negative things I have heard about venlafaxine, I have not yet experienced. Even missed pills and withdraws. I hope there are others who experience a good outcome with any pill they may need. Trial and error to find what is right for you. Don’t give up. I’m very great full for what it has done for me and how it’s helped me improve my mental health. I am about ¾ done with my first prescription so I do question the continuous use….
Will my bad experience with the drug come later for me?